Letter to Noah

Dear Noah,

Yesterday, we celebrated Christmas. We celebrated the birth of Jesus. On earth we tried having parties that honored Him, but I'm sure we can't even fathom how great a party it was in heaven. We spent some family moments by your burial site, which we visit quite frequently. Our sadness was comforted when we reminded ourselves that you are in heaven. Though we missed you here on earth, we took great comfort in knowing you were being held by your true Father.

Daddy spoiled Mommy this year, but it just made us both realize that money can't buy happiness. We would have traded everything we have in order to spend the holiday with you. But, again we remind ourselves that we wouldn't want to take you from the wonderfulness of heaven.

You were remembered by so many people this Christmas. Several beautiful ornaments were sent for you. Keepsakes that mommy and daddy treasure so much. Ba and Papa donated money in your honor to organizations that mean a lot to us. Oma did too! It's great to know that you are making an impact and helping others in need, something that your daddy and I feel so strongly about doing. Your creative Aunt Erin (along with the rest of the Lowe clan) got you a stocking with your name on it, a sweet ornament with your footprints and a poem that made mommy cry, as well as, a donation to an organization. Boy are you loved. Even though you weren't here to celebrate with us, you were remembered by all.

Our day was also filled with laughter. Your cousins can really make us chuckle. Kori and Eli came dressed in their new christmas presents. Kori was dressed as a cheerleader. She looked so cute with her pigtails. I don't think we'll ever hear a cheer from her, but she sure looks cute in the outfit. Eli came dressed in his Lions uniform, helmet and all. Ever since Farve left Green Bay, his daddy went back to being a Lions fan. Though Eli's mom (your Aunt Shawn) is a HUGE Vikings fan, his dad (your Uncle Chad) holds onto hope for the Lions. Chad refuses to become a Vikings fan, even though Farve is the QB. Izzy did her usual strip tease act after getting water on her shirt, we're not sure where she got that from...nor do we want to know. Isaiah serenaded us with his new guitar, he will be talented just like his daddy.

We missed you at our festivities, but we know you are in a better place.

Forever in our hearts-

Mom and Dad

P.S. I included some of the pictures I took with the new camera Daddy bought me. Daddy was a goofball and wore Eli's helmet.

Christmas

Sorry I've been so absent, in blogging and in life. Dan and I are both still so up and down with our daily emotions. One minute we are feeling strong...the next we are angry with God and the injustice that surrounds us. Just when we begin to find peace...something else around us smacks us in the face leaving us wondering...Where are you God?

As we approach Christmas, we find ourselves only to handle small doses at a time. To get through the holidays, Dan and I have avoided decorating. No tree, no lights, and no wreaths. We know we aren't being very festive, but we also know that our hearts can only handle so much. The only decoration we have put up is the beautiful wreath by Noah's marker.

As we are go through our ups and downs, we still know that God is wrapping His loving arms around us and carrying us through. Though we are angry and sorrowful, He is there. The days ahead we will cling to the true meaning of Christmas and remember Immanuel.